Once upon a time, a long time ago I use to be skinny. When I was 18 I weighed 98 lbs and wore a size 0-2. 15 years later, I am 33 weigh 143 lbs and wear a size 10-12. What happened?
What happened is that when I got to college I ate at anytime of night and started drinking alcohol. What happened is that I was no longer physically active like I was when I was on the dance team. That is what happened.
I can't even blame having a baby to my weight gain because while I was pregnant with Levi, I only gained 15 lbs and Levi was born at a little over 9 lbs. How does that happen right? Josh did most the cooking during my pregnancy so we ate a lot of grilled chicken and steamed broccoli. Not with the intention of eating healthy but because that was the only thing Josh knew how to make. He doesn't know how to cook but that man can grill.
My mission for the next 12 months before the wedding is to slim down and look good in a wedding dress. I am realistic. I don't expect myself to slim down to the size I was when I was 18 but I would like to be at a healthy 120 and wear a size 6. Bahahahah! Wouldn't everybody?!
Here is my plan. A friend of mine has recommended Jillian Michael's "30 Day Shred." I have purchased it. It is sitting on my shelf next to the new hand weights that I bought still in its packaging. I am going to open the package and get up at a crazy early hour in the morning and attempt the 30 Day Shred. I already work out a few days a week at the gym doing cardio but I'm going to kick it up a notch and go 5 days a week.
This is the "BIG" doozy. I will cut down on my beloved food. I will still cook and bake whatever my little heart desires, but I will not eat it (sounds impossible I know but I have done it before). My cooking will be for Josh and my lovely coworkers and friends. I will eat "healthy" and low carb. That is the plan.
Last year my boss started the HCG diet and saw immediate drastic results. So I jumped on the bandwagon. I did really well and in 30 days I went from 139 to 122. Then I got laid off and all the weight went back on including an extra 5 lbs. While I was on the HCG diet I still cooked and baked whatever I wanted and didn't eat "most" of it. I know I can do it again.
You know you need to lose a few pounds when you go try on clothes at the mall and you get so disappointed by how a size 10 fits that you buy makeup and shoes instead. If this outfit here is not going to look good on me then damn it I am at least going to paint my face pretty and have beautiful shoes on my skinny feet. Have you ever felt like this?.....